Life

Then It Ended

Prachi and Amanpreet

2016-09-11 3 min read


Another day had finally ended. She again finally had to return to her morbid and depressing world. She had shattered into pieces with those comments. On returning home all she did was, she fled to her room and started crying. Standing in front of the mirror, talking to herself she blameed herself for being week and not corageous enough to face the world. But that was not at all the case, Sheena was a strong and faced the cruel world with grace. It was just that she some of those kids who get mature before their age as the life shows hem the worst side of the world at a very young age. She consoled herself and said,"you have to gather all the courage and let it go''.

From being a fun loving, talkative and jubiliant girl to  a reserved and quiet individual her journey had been very sudden. Her mother was extremely ill when she was in class seventh and after her mother's demise when she was in class nineth her world turned upside down. She retreated to her own world, a world where no one was allowed to enter leaving all her pleasures and rejoices. As she was recovering from this trauma, her father too met a severe accident and was in I.C.U. for many years.

Now it has been six years since this incident and now she was in collage. This was not the end of her sufferings, to add to it she was teased by her classmates for the reason that she was an introvert. No one ever cared what her life was and she was only a laughing stock for them. Although she had learnt how not to pay heed to others, thinking but then again no matter how hard she tried and not care but there certain remarks that hurt so bad that  they tend to shatter her into pieces. This way life had always been cruel to her.

In this world full of miseries she was all by herself and the only silver lining in the dark was her best friend- Kavya. Kavya had known Sheena since they were in playschool. She knew everything about Sheena's life- every incident and every single happening of Sheena's life. Kavya was rhe only one whom Sheena could trust and tell her deepest and darkest secrets. 

As Sheena was busy crying her phone beeped. It was a call from Kavya. Knowing that Kavya would know that she was crying she did not attend the call. Kavya called a few more times and sensed that what would have happened and immediately left for Sheena's place. She reached there in fifteen minutes and rang the door bell. Sheena opened the door with swollen eyes as she had been crying for an hour now. Kavya entered the house and tried to calm Sheena down."Why do you do this to yourself?'' Kavya asked and continued," those idiots know nothing and they do not care either. Just let them be and you be where you are without paying heed to others' comments". Sheena sat there quietly and listened to each and everything but could not stop weeping. It took Kavya an hour or so to properly calm her down and then Kavya got up to leave the place and said,''I think i should leave now". Kavya left the place and that night Sheena did not had dinner and slept. Actually lately she had been suffering through this. Sometimes she was very hungry and ate a lot and at times she would not eat for a stretch of two days even she was hungry, sometimes four hour sleep was enough for her to be fresh the whole day and times she slept for ten hours at a stretch, sometimes she was non stop talking and sometimes did not even utter a single word.That was not all, she had attempted suicide a several times. 

One day she  asked Kavya to come to her place for a sleep over to which she agreed. They both talked the whole night. Next day, after they both got up and had done their daily chores, they were preparing breakfast together when Kavya noticed somethig. Sheena had cuts on her hand. She freaked out and asked her the reason for such marks. Sheena was baffled and answered,"um...no...these...nothing...i mean...these are old marks. Have not you noticed them earlier". Although Kavya did not answered  but she become aware of what was going on. After having breakfast Kavya left and Sheena also reached her collage.

On one hand Sheena continued with her daily routine but on the other hand Kavya consulted a prominent psychiatrist. On one fine day she called Sheena and  asked her to accompany her to the doctor. She did not inform her about the fact that in fact it was Sheena who had an appointment as the psychiatrist asked Kavya to do so.

On reaching the clinic Sheena found it really fishy that althiugh Kavya had an appointment with the doctor, he was only talking to her. After some normal talks doctor asked Sheena to leave and informed Kavya that her friend was suffering from a mental condition called depression. Wherein, people normally have suicidal tendency and also that the treatment was possible on and only if she was regular with her treatment and medicines. 

Kavya finally came to know that it is due to the fact that Sheena might not show it but deep within she is so much stuck with all the negativity that she can't hide the pain neither can let it go. She from then on took full care of Sheena and tried to give her medicines but all in vain but she would regularly take her to her doctor for councellings. Sheena was recovering but very slowly. But then one day she overheard the conversation of the psychiatrist and Kavya.

Psychiatrist was saying," look ms. Kavya you cannot let her know that she is suffering from deppression or else her condition could worsen.Untreated clinical depression is a serious problem. Untreateddepression increases the chance of risky behaviors such as drug or alcohol addiction. It also can ruin relationships, cause problems at work, and make it difficult to overcome serious illnesses.Clinical depression, also known as major depression, is an illness that involves the body, mood, and thoughts. Clinical depression affects the way you eat and sleep. It affects the way you feel about yourself and those around you. It even affects your thoughts.People who are depressed cannot simply “pull themselves together” and be cured. Without proper treatment, including antidepressantsand/or psychotherapy, untreated clinical depression can last for weeks, months, or years. Appropriate treatment, however, can help most people with depression". On hearing this Sheena was shocked and she left the place in anger and despair. She was so frustated that she lost all her cool and ttok a blade from her drawer and cut her hand a several times with it. She started bleeding profusely and then she started writing a note which read as follows:

DEAR KAVYA

THANK YOU FOR BEING WIYH ME ALL THROUGH THIS TIME. I KNOW THAT IT WOULD BE DIFFICULT TO MOVE ON BUT FOR THE SAKE OF OUR FRIENDSHIP PLEASE DO NOT DO SOMETHING FOOLISH. AS FAR I AM CONCERNED DEATH IS SOON TO LAY HANDS ON ME AND WOULD TAKE ME TO A PLACE WITH NO SUFFERINGS AND MISERIES. I DID ALL THIS SO THAT ALL OF IT CAN END.......

And then she fainted due to excess blood loss and soon died as death hath a thousand doors to find a life she may find soon.